It’s been another rough week for my fibromyalgia, and I had another flareup. I’ve spent tons of time in bed, trying to sleep, and once my doctor prescribed me some non-addictive sleeping pills, a lot more time in bed actually sleeping. I still feel exhausted and in pain, but I’m getting there. It’s terrible that I have to put up with this every day, and I feel even more for people who have it worse than me, like those who have to use mobility aids all the time (I just use my cane during flareups for the most part).
So one thing you might be wondering from all of this – how do I keep my faith so strong during life with fibromyalgia? I have to say, it’s not easy. There are a lot of days I feel like giving up entirely. There are a few things, however, that help me keep my faith strong.
I know that this is my cross to bear.
God has put different plans in for each of us, and I believe that He gives each one of us a cross to bear. It will never be the same as that which He gave His son, but each of our lives include suffering so we can know what Jesus went through and know that we need Him in every part of our lives.
As far as faith with fibromyalgia, I think that the pain I deal with is simply what God has given me to suffer through, and honestly I thank Him for it. It’s very difficult some days to get through it, but I know that He is trying to make my faith stronger through all of this.
I keep going to church even when it hurts.
I make it a point to attend church every Sunday (which, per a previous post, is actually a Baptist church now – sorry Catholic friends), no matter how much it hurts. I love our church because we get to hear interpretations of the scripture rather than long winded stories with a moral ending. That was exemplary of the church I went to before. This one focuses on the scripture and what God and the disciples are trying to tell us. Through that scripture, I’ve learned that God’s plan for us includes suffering.
Therefore, since Christ suffered for us in the flesh, arm yourselves also with the same mind, for he who has suffered in the flesh has ceased from sin, that he no longer should live the rest of his time in the flesh for the lusts of men, but for the will of God.1 Peter 4:1-2, NKJV
No matter how difficult it is to accept, God intends for us to suffer like His son did on the cross. If we don’t suffer, how would we know that we need God?
And through this, I also know that I need to attend church to keep my faith with fibromyalgia. It’s my favorite part of the weekend, even if it requires standing up for long periods. I make sure to bring my cane to church so I can get through service okay, and focus fully on the Word.
I read my Bible every day.
I’ve talked about this a little before, but I do a daily Bible reading from one of those ‘read the Bible in a year’ books – this one right now, but I have done this one before as well. Both are very good. I have them for the Kindle; the first one includes the scripture right in the text so you don’t have to use a Bible alongside it, and the second one allows you to pick whatever translation you want.
My fiancé and I are doing just the New Testament readings this year, which is a good practice in not overexerting yourself. I think next year we might go back to the second one and read the Bible chronologically; the one I’m doing now skips around a bit which is a little off putting especially when reading some of Paul’s letters before we’ve even read all the gospels. But we’re in May now, so we need to finish it!
I think this is really helpful with chronic illness because you can see evidence of God’s love for us in every word, and why He does what He does. Like the verse from 1 Peter I quoted earlier, God’s plan for us includes suffering and maybe this is just our cross to bear.
What do you guys think about this topic? Do you have any Bible verses that keep you going during tough times with chronic illness? Look out this week for a post of Bible verses for chronic illness!